The Original Sin

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There’s been a heavy thought on my mind and heavier weight in my heart. The thought is that the more I get to know people, the less they seem to understand the concept of the separation caused by sin.

Now, I believe that it’s in our nature to make errors. It’s even in our nature to fall into long extended periods of failing and rolling around in it trying to cover it up. I am surely one that is guilty of that. This is beyond us making a few mistakes, the sins that keep us separated is much more rooted in the condition of our hearts before God.

I never believed that Adam and Eve were punished for eating a piece of fruit, nor did I believe that a group of people constructing a tower was hit with God’s wrath all of a sudden. I also don’t think an entire  city was demolished just because they did some bad things. I kept thinking, there must have been something of greater weight  for them to receive such harsh consequences. The only thing that I can see it to tie it all together is the fact that they let their own desires, their own decisions, outweigh the decisions of God.

If on my own accord I decided that I myself was greater than God, then His existence has no meaning to me and thus I forfeit all inheritance as I have proclaimed I do not belong to Him. Right? If I say that you don’t exist in my life, then chances are all the things you offer to me essentially don’t exist to me. If I really think about it, it’s actually very alarming  at how much I do just that in my life. If justice had its way, I would be long gone, I have proclaimed many times that my thoughts were much greater than God’s, and my ways much higher than His.

And that’s where I start to feel separated spiritually.

In the bible it tells us that God has forgiven all of our sins, past, present, and future. So why is it that even though I do sin, I keep telling myself that I am justified through Christ but at the same time feel still so separated from Him? It’s actually a very simple question. So Christ died on our behalf so that we are forgiven, and no matter what, we are saved. Caput, once you accepted that fact you have a ticket through the narrow gate. But, when we continue to place ourselves at higher grounds than God and we make our decisions based on our own thoughts and justifications, we are creating a chasm between our life and God’s hand simply by rejecting his presence in our lives. Now because He is loving, He will not make you love Him because forced love would probably be called something else.

Bottom line is that when we say we are judged by God, I don’t know for sure, but I do not believe He sees the actual act we committed. I don’t think He really cares if you ate a piece of fruit in His garden. I don’t think that building a giant tower would have pissed Him off. I don’t think that doing drugs, cheating on your wife, or gossiping about the new girl is what He sees. Whatever the act is and whatever degree, it doesn’t really matter. What He sees is you proclaiming that you know what’s best, despite his warning and guidance, you are choosing to reject it and walking away from what could have been yours and into something He’s been trying to protect you from. And after a long time of living on your own without Him, you might feel a little distant. People might start to wonder where God is and think that God doesn’t exist, because He’s so far away — so distant from our lives because we simply didn’t need Him anymore. Then you begin to wonder where He was when you needed Him, but despite His offering of help, because you have been rejecting Him for so long… the further He just seems to be.

Luckily though He is a wonderful God that wants to pick up where you left off with no strings attached. That’s grace – something we didn’t deserve to receive but received to its fullest benefit. He will always be there for you when you realize that you do need Him.

When we see our brothers and sisters in this continuous vicious cycle of our world, but most importantly ourselves, we need to look away from the act itself and focus on the posture of our hearts.
Have we been justifying all of our actions based on ourselves and our own experiences or do we really make decisions together while loving Christ?
It’s always been from the very beginning, a matter of pride.


ARTIST | Urban Rescue


A friend of mine had recently introduced me to a new Christian band called “Urban Rescue”. I didn’t have a huge opinion about it but she was more than enthusiastic to share. When I first listened to them it was definitely a refreshing take on Christian music. I love music and I love music that are able to take me to places that are different then where I am at that moment. Ever had that feeling, or am I alone on this? And Urban Rescue has been a good source of that.

Scruffy beards, denim, mason jars, and hipster art works is only the surface of this Los Angeles band. If you have not heard of them yet, they have awesome music and I can really see them catching some major attention soon. I’m just coming back from a free show that they had at Christ Presbyterian Church in Huntington Beach. They’re absolutely exceptional live and truly usher in a pure weight of worship. Energetic, raw, and honest are some words that really come to mind when I think about describing Urban Rescue. Speaking to them after showed me how passionate they were about bringing their love for music and God together.

They’ll be going on tour soon so I do advise catching some dates to see them.

They will also be releasing a new EP in the beginning of August. I was able to hear some of the songs during the worship night, and I’m very excited to add them to my Spotify playlist.

Here’s a song from their album “Listen Empty” called Take Me Back:

18 Struggles Of Having An Outgoing Personality But Actually Being Shy And Introverted

I never thought that I would find someone that understands me to the very ends of my fiber… They did miss one thing, that I screen calls until I muster up enough mental will for social interaction, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love you.

(original link is here in case the other link doesn’t work:

Thought Catalog

This… this is my soul song, people. This is my Vietnam.

1. You’re not anti-social, you’re selectively social.

2. At any given point, you have one (maybe two) best friends who are your entire life. You’re not a “group of friends” person. You can’t keep up with all that.

3. Social gatherings that are supposed to be “rites of passage” like prom and dances and other such typical nonsense is just… not for you. You don’t understand it. You want nothing to do with it.

4. When you do choose to grace a party with your presence, you are the life of it. You’re dancing on the table and doing body shots until 3 a.m.

5. … You then retreat into three days of complete solitude to recover.

6. You go out of your way to avoid people, but when you inevitably have to interact with them, you make it…

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Box Addictions #1: The Twistband Club July 2014

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I might have a history of subscribing to multiple boxes of unnecessary beauty products and accessories. And now I have added a new box to my collection

The Twistband Club.

The Twistband started in 2008 and is located in Newport Beach, California.
These hairbands are made from a special blend of elastic so that it won’t leave dents in your hair. The first time I used Twistbands was from my earlier boxes called Birchbox – it sent me one scrunchy and I really loved how it felt in my hair and the simplicity of the actual band itself. I subscribed for 3-months at $10 per box.

Now, I understand that it might seem unreasonable to spend so much money on something that looks like a tied up elastic underwear band. However, I enjoy them and seeing all the colors keeps me happy and so I thought I would give it a shot.

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Top 10 Favorite Films I Can Watch on Repeat

To be honest, it’s hard to watch any movies on repeat unless if it’s Harry Potter.
I figured these are the top 10 movies that I wouldn’t mind re-watching apart from Harry.

I’m a huge movie lover, so condensing down movies to a list is very difficult. The reason I decided to create a list is because someone had asked me earlier about what my top 5 favorite movies were. It took me a long time to think about it (actually it took quite a long time), and the more I thought about it, the list continued to grow.

That’s why I just wanted to keep track of what my favorite movies are to date. I have omitted Animated Movies and a long list of Chick Flicks (yet a few has made it onto this list) for another time and another list.

The following movies are not necessarily the most mind-blowing, academy award winning, nor the most critically acclaimed picture of all times, but these are movies that have been timeless to me and have a special place in my heart. So here they are, Michelle’s Top 10 Favorite Movies (thus far):

1. Big Fish

Big Fish is a little different from your usual Tim Burton films but it’s still licked with his familiar surreal elements. This one actually reminds me of the Notebook, if it were played out in a dream sequence throughout the entire film… and then realize Noah and Allie are just never going to wake up. When this film released I was completely breath taken by how well Tim Burton was able to convey all sorts of feelings and motifs through not only the acting but with  every inch of the scene.


2. Midnight in Paris

I would not say this is the best written nor best performed piece in the universe, but I still loved it. I’m starting to realize that I might have a “type” for movies that I’m attracted to. Luke Wilson stars as a modern aged author in Paris with his fiance, and then a whole bunch of stuff happens. This film is fun for those who love literature and art, a fiction that welds two different eras together. Getting to see Pablo Picasso, Fitzgerald, Hemingway, Cole Porter, and  all together is just really fun to watch. It’s like an Easter egg hunt throughout the movie, except instead of candy filled eggs you’re looking for some of the most influential artists of our time.


3. Mean Girls

On Wednesdays, we wear pink. This movie has capped off what it would have meant to have been in highschool during the new millenium. I also absolutely adore this cast, such amazing female actresses to ever have walked down North Shore High’s locker room halls: Tina Fey, Amy Poehler, Rachel McAdams, Amanda Seyfried, Lizzy Caplan. And of course, Lindsey… oh Lindsey… truly a testament of why it is important to make smart business decisions in life.

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